Dear Emotions,

Since the start of July, I have been feeling many emotions that are from the past, present, and future. I am remembering old emotions where I feel I misunderstood myself, misunderstood my family, misunderstood my sadness of my upbringing, misunderstood the bullying of the way I looked and acted in public places such as school, grocery stores, etc. I have felt emotions arise of not-belonging, not fitting in, I felt my childhood experience was short-lived, because I had to grow up so fast.

I feel emotions arising of my present self. Feeling emotions such as confusion, neutrality towards my true purpose on this planet in this current body, questioning why am I here? Questioning If I am on the right path? Questioning the significance of the body I chose. Just feeling all of it. The present moment of writing this blog, I feel calm, trusting my emotions, trusting that what I am currently feeling is okay. That my emotions help me remember what it is I want, and what it is I do not want. And with my significant increase in awareness now, I understand that when I feel something I don’t want, I know in order to not attract it, is to let it go, not worry about it, and continue creating new patterns of what I do want. Because the Universe is unbiased with our wants and unwants. Knowing this has been a game changer for me, and so therefore, this process of feeling all my emotions during these times, will only aid me to further co-create, manifest my truest desires and wants.

I am feeling emotions arise about my future. Where will I live in 3 months? How will I pay my bills, if I quit my current job? Am I going to be okay with my new career choice? and I feel these thoughts only linger because I understand my mind will always have thoughts about the future. I don’t feel it is negative unless I give it much attention, my only concern is to allow these emotions and thoughts to arise to let myself know, I am not afraid and do not have to entertain every thought that crosses my mind. That is why when I meditate, I do not have the intention of stopping my mind, I allow my mind to flow, and calm down, through breathe and stillness, and feeling into my body. I want my mind to have thoughts because thoughts create my reality, I am just training my mind to listen to positive thoughts and listening for messages from my higher self, source, and the divine, because they speak to me through thoughts and feelings.

As you read through this blog, I am aware that I have been using the words ‘thoughts’, ‘feelings’, and ‘emotions’ a lot. I feel that is because they all connect. They connect in a way where our emotions arise through thoughts and actions. For example, If someone you love acted rudely towards you one day… then you may feel triggered in some way where an emotion arises, and then a thought of, “why did they direct their negative energy to me that way.” So there are many other examples I could give, but let us just realize this, the more we make the connection that our thoughts, emotions, and feelings all correlate to how our day will be, who we show up to be, and what life we truly choose to live in, it will benefit oneself greatly. Because remember, thoughts create our reality, thoughts are like a moving car and our emotions and feelings is the steering wheel of the car. Moving through life with ease, flow, happiness, and peace requires oneself to honor their emotions, to feel them, listen closely, and feel it out so the experience is a smoother drive. When we suppress, repress, and ignore our emotions or feelings, we lose control of the steering and our mind takes hold of the moving vehicle, that is a recipe for chaos, drama, and fear based reality. So, I hope this makes sense, I simply am expressing my own innerstanding of what emotions, thoughts, and feelings mean to me, and how it has helped me to have a smoother drive in my present life. What I shared in the beginning of this blog, was for me to express my emotions, honor them, and allow them to flow through without repression or judgement. It is okay for me to feel. And I know my mind is not in charge of my vehicle, my heart is the driver, and my emotions and feelings are the steering wheel. Yet I love my mind, and honor it, because I would not be able to steer or drive without a moving vehicle.