Tension, Belief systems, and Old stories
As I dive deeper into understanding diseases, trauma, ailments, chronic conditions, inflammation, and pain. I am constantly reminded that it mainly stems from held tension, repeated stories, and mental belief systems. I myself have been down this journey and continue to rewrite my story about who I am and who I am becoming. I have struggled with pains, hip issues, lower back issues, and even had some addictions. I share my story to create relatability for those who are currently feeling misunderstood, confused, feeling like there is no way out or that there is no cure for what you are going through. I know sometimes it can be difficult to feel stuck and worthless, but I am here to remind you that there is a solution to everything, but it starts with your personal belief systems and what story do you keep playing out and repeating.
What is tension and how does this correlate with disease, inflammation chronic conditions, ailments, and pain. The Dictionary definition of tension is, “the state of being stretched tight.” by oxford languages. Now really feel into this definition. Imagine the body being stretched tight, so tight, that muscles become too tight to move, mobility becomes tough, and most importantly energy has no way of flowing through the body. So, now correlate this tension to how so many of us feel pain, holding on to certain emotions, feeling sick, experiencing a chronic condition. I believe this is one of the reasons why we manifest disease in the body or feel stuck in life is because we are holding on to tension. And by tension, I compare it to emotional energy as well, When we hold on to resentment, hate, guilt, and blame, we are holding on to tension. Tension in spiritual terms I define as stuck energy. I imagine our body as energetic, electrical bodies, and when we have tension in the body it creates distortion for the flow of energy to go through the body. I also imagine our bodies as rivers of flowing water, and when there is an obstruction in the river, the water cannot flow properly.
I have been experimenting with this theory, I have also been implementing practices to show this is real and not just theory. I will let the experiences speak for themselves, and you should truly try some of these practices if you wish to find out for yourself.
In my younger years, I have dealt with many physical issues, and two areas in particular that I have been focusing on to release tension, is my hips and shoulders/neck. I have struggled with pain and inflammation in these areas. I was very athletic growing up, yet I always felt limited with the pain in my hips and neck shoulder areas. I tried everything from massages every week, chiropractic care every 2 weeks, going to Korean spas, and changing my diet around. While these methods did help with some relief, it still seemed as if I was going in circles. I end up just coping and living with the pain.
Fast forward to now, after moving to Colorado in 2019, My journey began to dive deeper into my spiritual growth, I was shedding so many layers of who I thought I was, and I also began my reiki journey. During these shedding years from 2019-present, I began to bring awareness to the tension I carried in my body. I began to dive deeper into my belief systems, and rewriting my story and the story I would tell others about myself. I have adopted a daily meditation practice, I began creating pockets of stillness through out my day, and I have been staying active through regular exercise and stretching. I found that introducing positive affirmations also helped re-wire my belief systems into a harmonious way of thinking. I began to connect the dots practicing these activities to why I have had pain in my hips, and neck/shoulder areas. Reading the book “You can heal your life”, by Louise Hay, was a huge help for me to understand the pain in my body and the emotional meaning behind it. It helped me bring awareness that everything is energy, and when I feel the areas of pain, I ask myself, what am I holding on to, where is this coming from, and is this my pain. And also through the practice of Ho’oponopono, this has increased my awareness and ability to practice dissolving the “stuck” energy, and or tension I hold in my body.
I can happily say I rarely feel pain in these areas now, I may sometimes feel it come up through long car drives, and when it does, I make sure to pull over and pause, stretch, and breathe my body into peace and releasing tension. I feel this has been the biggest game changer for me, because you can read all the books, go to as many practitioners possible, and listen to podcasts, but knowledge is not power unless it is applied.
Innovating my lifestyle, becoming aware of my tension, changing my belief systems and rewriting the story I tell has really made the biggest difference for me. I still read health books, listen to spiritual podcasts, and go to practitioners and massage therapists for help every now and then, but it is with a different perspective. I choose these practices to remind myself what I am already capable of healing within myself. I do not seek help with the belief that they will solve all my problems, but I come to these helpful resources as a reminder for myself, that we help each other remember we are whole and complete. We sometimes need a reminder from someone we trust and love. I happily hold this concept of reminding each other we are whole and complete through my reiki practice. If I am to hold space for someone’s personal healing I must be integral, honest, and authentic myself about how I am able to heal myself and also share my experiences for those on the same path of remembering their true divinity and ability to heal themselves. I practice what I preach in better terms. I love inspiring others to be their authentic selves, be yourself unapologetically with love and respect.