Ancestral Reconciliation

I was moved by my phone call to my father today. I call my parents about once a month, I do so because I create an energetic boundary of coherence. I understand I will never completely figure out why my parents choose to live the way they do, and I accept that. I am grateful to have the awareness to love them unconditionally, whether I agree with them or not. I had a great phone call with my father, we went deep, talked about how religion can be confusing, how the media presses fear into the masses subconsciously, and how my mother has a cloud of darkness over her. It really reminded me when my father was talking about my mother’s ways of projecting her anger to other living beings. I remembered the hurt and fear I carried when I was growing up around her. after we finished our phone call, it hit me hard to be reminded of the environment I shared with my mother when I was a child. Being around my mother who instilled fear and darkness, I took a moment to breathe and recalibrate. I sat there, just feeling what I felt, allowing the emotions to arise organically without suppressing them or telling them "‘no.” I was inspired to ask my inner guidance system what to do during moments of my past that echoed out into this moment, this moment where I find myself in a much better place of peace and sovereignty.

The echoes of the past still lurking, always reminding me that my lessons and remembrance throughout my childhood is what helped shape me today. I gracefully take full personal responsibility for my choosing of the parents in this lifetime, I got my answer, I am here to choose a different resonance, sing a different song, not because I am better, or that I am separate from them, but because I remember I have the power to choose a new harmonic tone. I remember “I am not affected by everything, I am everything,” the wise words of buddha ring in my ears as I write this.

I remind all of you that when in doubt of why someone is in your life, it has greater meaning than we think, because when we think, we stay in victimhood, but when we feel, we step into our hearts, we bring coherence, we are reminded that the people in our lives play a bigger role for our own goodness sake. Our sake to remember and recalibrate into unconditional love, reflection, and unity. We are all fragments of the same mirror.

“The divine light in me, sees the divine light in you..”