Growth is unsettling, Read This

Does it feel overwhelming when situations in your life are getting loud? Does it feel heavy? Is your mind racing with thoughts? I know how unsettling the feelings are, I also go through life changes, uncomfortable growth, and repeated cycles of mistakes. I now know that life is a wonderful construct of repeating lessons until we get it “right”, change being the only constant, life not always feeling like it is going the way you planned, so many uncertainties, emotions of self-doubt, pain, grief, and everything else in between. The harmonious feelings are also a wonderful construct of life, they are easier to comprehend! the happiness, the laughters, the beautiful people in our lives, the unconditional love from our pets, the wow of nature, the bliss of sweet sleep and rest, the highs of everything working out for you, the amazing memories that can never be replicated.

I write this today, to remind you that life is a rollercoaster. For me I use to feel that my low moments, my terrible dreams, my exhausting days, the worse news received, the negative comments someone said about me, the vehicle not working, the dreams not fulfilled, all of those moments that seem not so great were wrong for me to experience, I believed that I shouldn’t be listening or having those negative moments. But they are actually so important to accept and feel. To feel the lower density helps those energies not become stuck in our bodies. I feel I learned this lesson through the energy work I practice today. I did not realize that I was holding on to repressed emotions, or feelings from way long a ago, and when I understood the importance of loving and accepting those low moments, I felt a sense of relief. A sense of resolution and developed the practice of harnessing my own infinite energy to move forward with strong desire for self love and personal growth. I understand that it can be complicated to accept and appreciate the hard moments in life. I also believe that it is truly okay to not be okay, to be honest for where you are at, to be transparent with yourself and not care what other people are thinking about you. That was my greatest struggle, caring too much what others thought of me, about me, feeling misunderstood. I struggled with that growing up, the household I grew up in really brought those insecurities to dictate my everyday life as I got older. Through my own journey of seeking truth and light for the darkness I repressed, that is how I truly came to the understanding that the darkness needs love too. In order to harness your full energetic potential, we must love the light and the dark. When I say that, what I mean is, we must appreciate the good times and the bad times, because it helps unleash those negative belief systems that when we experience a not so good feeling moment, it doesn’t mean that we are failures or that we can’t get anything right, it means we are bringing awareness to what haunts us and it is asking for attention from our hearts to accept and move forward. I have a whole new meaning for my life when I experience not so good feelings about myself or about my life, I actually find a quiet space to sit with the feelings of overwhelm, anxiety, and pain, instead of ignoring those moments and feelings, I instead let them be. I let those lower density energies be and let myself experience it. It is the only way to not let those negative feelings over take our mind and body, to show those feelings and emotions that they matter too. Becoming neutral with the emotions at large to make sure you are not being persuaded off your healing path or your dreams and desires.

What I Practice

I meditate, I practice breathing exercises, and I repeat harmonious affirmations that rewire my subscious beliefs about myself and about my reality. When I meditate, I find a quiet spot, I close my eyes, and I begin to focus on my breathe. I focus on how My body is feeling, where in my body am I holding the most tension, and breathe into the area where there is most tension and breathing out through my mouth to release that tension. Later settling in to my breathe, I breathe in and out through my nose only. I find it especially difficult when I am going through something tough in my life where it becomes a bit harder to do these practices, but it takes practice to come back to your breathe and find peace within. I recently got reminded about this, because the last couple days for me have been very tough mentally, I felt like I am not doing enough for my business, and I blamed my vehicle for holding me back from staying productive, but when I remembered to just sit, come back to my breathe, quiet my mind, I realized all is well. It is not my vehicle’s fault for why I am feeling the way I have been, It is so easy to blame something for why we are experiencing negative emotions, but in reality, the external circumstances and events are showing us what we have been doing or feeling within ourselves. I am so grateful to have rewired my brain to not feel like a victim all the time, I continue to rewire my brain to remember that nothing happens to me, but it is happening for me. When we think too much, and think about how we are going to resolve the problems and conflicts in our lives, it does not create a harmonious life. It’s about learning to be calm, practicing our breathe into stillness and centering ourselves to calm the mind, calm the nervous system so the resolutions can develop harmoniously within and therefore without. Because at the end of the day, We naturally find resolutions, it just depends how easy or hard the journey is until the resolution is brought to our attention. I know people, things, and events will naturally want to correct themselves, the only true stagnancy is ourselves. We get in the way of how smoothly something can get resolved. Allowing life to happen through us, allowing life to direct us through conflicts. Letting go of the thinking mind on how things will get better, and tapping into more of the belief that everything is working out for the best. Understading that external conflicts will not dictate my true happiness and direction for my life to be in harmony.

I now understand thanks to my current situations, that I am grateful for my life, my blessings of having a roof over my head, not itching for money, not worrying about the future, and not letting others and material possessions to persuade my true north star, my true essence that I am an amazing infinite being experiencing a temporary human life. I go with the punches, I learn to recover with ease, and give space for the lessons to unfold right before me.

If you would like some guidance on meditation, check out the app: the Monroe Institute. I love this app, recently just downloaded it again, to dive deeper into my meditation practice.

I also recommend youtube videos about calming the nervous system and calm the mind to find clarity and peace in your life. just search for these topics and let yourself trust your intution on which video you click on.

We are all in this together! You are not alone, Feel free to share your experience below! I would love to hear your experience on how you have been managing balance in your life with “good” and “bad” experiences. even though I truly believe there are not “bad” experiences, because everything is perspective. But that is how I have trained my mind, To just reflect and change the way I see the experiences that may not feel so light and peaceful, because those moments teach me how to get back on track with my peace and harmony, therefore I am grateful for that. All life is about is balancing our energy, always remembering, always balancing.